sway by bic runga

Don't stray
Don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better
Of me sometimes
When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown
Let me down
I say its all because of you and here I go
Losing my control
I'm practising your name
So I can say it to your face it doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye
And let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time
Tell you why
I say its infinately true
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
And there's no cure
And no way to be sure
Why everythings turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired
I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now
It all turns sour
Come sweeten
Every afternoon
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Its all because of you
Its all because of you



notus: it's all bcuz of you... allin. huhuhuhuhuhu...

Easy Like Sunday Morning by Faith No More

Know it sounds funny
But I just can't stand the pain
Girl I'm leaving you tomorrow
Seems to me girl
You know I've done all I can
You see I begged, stole
And I borrowed
Ooh, that's why I'm easy
I'm easy like Sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like Sunday morning

I wanna be high, so high
I wanna be free to know
The things I do are right
I wanna be free
Just me, babe!
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like Sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like Sunday morning
Because I'm easy
Easy like Sunday morning
Because I'm easy
Easy like Sunday morning



notus: wow! how i wish things can be easy like Sunday morning.

Love Song by 311

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you



notus: he almost sang this song to me. why does he have to be this goddamn romantic when he's a self-confessed playboy? augh! gurls just love bad boys, don't we?

fake plastic trees by radiohead

Her Green plastic watering can
For her fake chinese rubber plant
In fake plastic earth.
That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plans.
Just to get rid of itself.
And It Wears Her Out, it wears her out
It wears her out, it wears her out.

She lives with a broken man
A cracked polystyrene man
Who just crumbles and burns.
He used to do surgery
For girls in the eighties
But gravity always wins.
And It Wears Him Out, it wears him out
It wears him out, it wears him out.

She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My Fake Plastic Love.
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run
And It Wears Me Out, it wears me out
It wears me out, it wears me out.

And if I could BE who you wanted
If I could BE who you wanted,
All the time, all the time, ohhh... ohh...



notus: my favorite song in the world. i love and adore green day as a band but i sing my praises and throw heaps and heaps of adulation to radiohead for this song.

be strong now by james iha

little darling belle with such a fragile shell
in the powerful way that love seems to make her all regret it now
and if she'd only say what's wrong- she can't go on
you've got to be strong now
and if I come and hold you now
you'll be safe and sound
little lonely face that no one ever sees
you see the thing she believes is life is bittersweet if she'd
open up to me, and its the only thing she dreams,
you gotta believe
you've got to be strong now
and if I come and hold you now
you've got to be strong now
if I hold you now
if I hold you now
if I hold you now
ooh god if I could change a thing tonight we won't
be lonely, ooh god if I could change a thing,
why does it have to be this way
you've got to be strong now
and if i come and hold you now
you've got to be strong now
if i hold you now
if i hold you now


notus: heard myself singing to this lyrics tonight.... you've gotta be strong now...

forget her by jeff buckley

While this town is busy sleeping,
All the noise has died away.
I walk the streets to stop my weeping,
'Cause she'll never change her ways.
Don't fool yourself, she was heartache from the moment that you met her.
My heart feels so still as I try to find the will to forget her, somehow.
Oh I think I've forgotten her now.
Her love is a rose, pale and dying.
Dropping her petals in land unknown
All full of wine, the world before her, was sober with no place to go.
Don't fool yourself, she was heartache from the moment that you met her.
My heart is frozen still as I try to find the will to forget her, somehow.
She's somewhere out there now.
(Guitar Solo)
Well my tears falling down as I try to forget,
Her love was a joke from day that we met.
All of the words, all of her men,
all of my pain when I think back to when.
Remember her hair as it shone in the sun,
the smell of the bed when I knew what she'd done.
Tell yourself over and over you won't ever need her again.
But don't fool yourself,
she was heartache from the moment that you met her.
My heart is frozen still as I try to find the will to forget her, somehow.
She's out there somewhere now.
Oh She was heartache from the day that I first met her.
My heart is frozen still as I try to find the will to forget you, somehow.
Cause I know you're somewhere out there right now.



notus: fur sid. he deserves someone not like you.

here in my room by incubus

This party is old and uninviting
Participants all in black and white
You enter in fullblown technicolor
Nothing is the same after tonight

If the world would fall apart
In a fiction worthy wind
I wouldn't change a thing
Now that you're here

Yeah, love is a verb here in my room
Here in my room, here in my room

You enter and close the door behind you
Now show me the world as seen from the stars
If only the lights would dim a little
I'm weary of eyes upon my scars

Pink tractor beam into your incision
Head spinning as free as dervishs' whirl
I came here expecting next to nothing
So thank you for being that kind of girl
That kind of girl



notus: your... just... so... ... ... listen to me now... this is your song... aw man... why am i a frustrated writer???!!

say it ain't so by weezer

Oh yeah.
All right.

Somebody’s heine is crowding my icebox.
Somebody’s cold one is giving me chills.
Guess I’ll just close my eyes.

Oh yeah.
All right.
Feels good.
Inside.

Flip on the tele... wrestle with jimmy.
Somethin’ is bubblin’ behind my butt.
The bottle is ready to go.

Say it ain’t so a-woah-a-woah.
Your drug is a heartbreaker.
Say it ain’t so a-woah-a-woah.
My love is a life-taker.

I can’t confront you, I never could do...
That which might hurt you.
Try and be cool, when I say:
This way is-a-waterslide-away-from-you-that-takes-you-futher-everyday!
Be cool.

Say it ain’t so a-woah-a-woah.
Your drug is a heartbreaker.
Say it ain’t so a-woah-a-woah.
My love is a life-taker!

Dear daddy, I write you in spite of fears of silence.
You cleaned up, found jesus, things are good also I hear.
This bottle of stevens awakens ancient feelings...
Like father, step-father...
The sone is drowning in the flood! yeah yeah-yeah yeah-yeah!

Say it ain’t so a-woah-a-woah.
You drug is a heartbreaker.
Say it ain’t so a-woah-a-woah.
My love is a life-taker.



notus: lovlovlovin' this song... would you believe this has been around for a decade now??? and we grunge people are still jamming on it. i wish i had a band.... really.

cut your hair by pavement

Darlin’ don’t you go and cut your hair
Do you think it’s gonna make him change?
I’m just a boy with a new haircut
And that’s a pretty nice haircut
Charge it like a puzzle, hit me wearin’ muzzles
Hesitate to die, look around, around, the second drummer’s drowned
His telephone is found

Music scene is crazy, bands start up each and every day
I saw another one just the other day
A special new band
I remember lying
I don’t remember lies
I don’t remember what
But I don’t care, I care, I really don’t care
Did you see the drummer’s hair?

Advertising looks and chops a must
No big hair!!
Songs mean a lot
When songs are bought
And so are you-
Bitch, rant down to the practice room
Attention and fame so
Career, career, career....



notus: to all long-haired hardcore rockers: this is for you! reynan once gave me a tape of songs. one of them has this song on it. i dunno why he included it in the list but like him, i wear my hair long.

everybody here wants you by jeff buckley

Twenty-nine pearls in your kiss, a singing smile,
coffee smell and lilac skin, your flame in me.
Twenty-nine pearls in your kiss, a singing smile,
coffe smell and lilac skin, your flame in me.
I'm only here for this moment.
I know everybody here wants you.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you.
I'll be waiting right here just to show you

How our love will blow it all away.
Such a thing of wonder in this crowd,
I'm a stranger in this town, you're free with me.
And our eyes locked in downcast love, I sit here proud,
Even now you're undressed in your dreams with me.
I'm only here for this moment.
I know everybody here wants you.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you.
I'll be waiting right here just to show you
How our love will blow it all away.
I know the tears we cried have dried on yesterday
The sea of fools has parted for us
there's nothing in our way, my love
Don't you see, don't you see?
You're just the torch to put the flame
to all our guilt and shame,
And I'll rise like an ember in your name.
You know I, you know I,
I know everybody here wants you.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you.
I'll be waiting right here just to show you
Let me show that love can rise, rise just like
embers.
Love can taste like the wine of the ages, babe.
And I know they all look so good from a distance,
But I tell you I'm the one.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you,
thinks he needs you
And I'll be waiting right here just to show you.



notus: sexy, sexy, sexy song.... this fits as a background song during foreplay. can you picture out what i'm thinking??? i couldn't articulate it. would you rather see me do it??? hehehehe

No Rain by Blind Melon

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
I like watchin' the puddles gather rain
And all I can do is just pour some tea for two
and speak my point of view
But it's not sane, It's not sane

I just want some one to say to me
I'll always be there when you wake
Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made

And I don't understand why I sleep all day
And I start to complain that there's no rain
And all I can do is read a book to stay awake
And it rips my life away, but it's a great escape
escape......escape......escape......

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
ya don't like my point of view
ya think I'm insane
Its not sane...... it's not sane.



notus: this song reminded me so much of tina. tina was a teammate back in our football varsity. she could flex her and twitch her bones as if they're cartilidge. that's how bendable her body is. anyway, she frequently bugged jingle aka floyd the asteriod of NU 107 davao (not sure if he's still with NU though)...

Glory box by Portishead

I'm so tired of playing,
Playing with this bow and arrow,
Gonna give my heart away,
Leave it to the other girls to play,
For I've been a temptress too long.

Hmm just,
Give me a reason to love you,
Give me a reason to be,
A woman,
I just wanna be a woman.

From this time, unchained,
We’re all looking at a different picture,
Through this new frame of mind,
A thousand flowers could bloom,
Move over, and give us some room.

Yeah,
Give me a reason to love you,
Give me a reason to be,
A woman,
I just want to be a woman.

So don't you stop, being a man,
Just take a little look from our side when you can,
Sow a little tenderness,
No matter if you cry.

Give me a reason to love you,
Give me a reason to be,
A woman,
It's all I wanna be is all woman.

For this is the beginning of forever and ever,
It's time to move over ,
So I want to be.

I'm so tired of playing,
Playing with this bow and arrow,
Gonna give my heart away,
Leave it to the other girls to play.
For I've been a temptress too long.

Hmm just,
Give me a reason to love you.



notus: do you remember that sexy song from a levi's commercial before? i so love it... i could actually imagine beth gibbons singing right in front of me. a real teaser!

Secret Smile by Semisonic

Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me
Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me

So use it and prove it
Remove this whirling sadness
I'm losing, I'm bluesing
But you can save me from madness

Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me
Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me

So save me I'm waiting
I'm needing, hear me pleading
And soothe me, improve me
I'm grieving, I'm barely believing now, now

When you are flying around and around the world
And I'm lying alonely
I know there's something sacred and free reserved
And received by me only



notus: and this for squid. au revoir.

Nothing Compares To You by Sinead O'Connor

It's been seven hours and fifteen days
Since you took your love away
I go out every night and sleep all day
Since you took your love away
Since you been gone I can do whatever I want
I can see whomever I choose
I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant
But nothing
I said nothing can take away these blues
`Cause nothing compares
Nothing compares to you

It's been so lonely without you here
Like a bird without a song
Nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling
Tell me baby where did I go wrong
I could put my arms around every boy I see
But they'd only remind me of you
I went to the doctor n'guess what he told me
Guess what he told me
He said girl you better try to have fun
No matter what you do
But he's a fool
`Cause nothing compares
Nothing compares to you

All the flowers that you planted, mama
In the back yard
All died when you went away
I know that living with you baby was sometimes hard
But I'm willing to give it another try
Nothing compares
Nothing compares to you
Nothing compares
Nothing compares to you
Nothing compares
Nothing compares to you



notus: i was viewing my friendster. i checked allin's profile and her gurlfriend's too... the place where they went was plain paradise. i had the urge to ask the gurlfriend, dolly, and i really did. i hope i'd get a reply. but then... it pained me. i was struck through the heart... i know i love allin... maybe i don't bcuz i never really had closure with my feelings for him.... it was like... i was seeing him and then he was gone and he was back again then gone again then back then gone... vicious cycle! omigod! why? i'm in a relationship and it is him i think of. it is him my heart beats for. its his presence i long for... ouch!

a plain morning by dashboard confessional

It's yet to be determined
but the air is thick
and my hope is feeling worn
i'm missing home
and i'm glad you're not a part of this
there's parts of me that will be missed
and the phone is always dead to me
so I can't tell you
the tempurature is dropping
and it feels like
it's colder than it oughta be in march
and i've still got a day or two ahead of me
till i'll be heading home
into your arms, again
and the people here are asking after you
it doesn't make it easier
it doesn't make it easier to be away
I'd like to hire a plane
and see you in the morning
when the day is fresh,
i'm coming home again
coming home again
coming home again
when the day is fresh,
i'm coming home again
well, it's warmer where you're waiting
it feels more like july
there's pillows in their cases
and one of those is mine
and you wrote the words, "I love you"
and sprayed it with perfume
it's better than the fire is
to heat this lonely room
it's warmer where you're waiting
it feels more like july
it feels more like july
and it's yet to be determined
but the air is thick
and my hope is feeling worn
I'm missing home
and i'm glad you're not a part of this
there's parts of me that will be missed
and the phone is always dead to me
so I can't tell you the tempurature is dropping
and it feels like
it's colder than it oughta be in march
and i've still got a day or two ahead of me
till i'll be heading home
into your arms, again
and the people here are asking after you
it doesn't make it easier
it doesn't make it easier to be away
I'd like to hire a plane
and see you in the morning
when the day is fresh,
i'm coming home again
i'm coming home again
i'm coming home again
when the day is fresh,
i'm coming home again



notus: dave loved this song... and now, i know why.

Linger by Cranberries

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade.

I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude,
It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everything.

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong. I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?



notus: when i get to go home with ate omo, sheee and skeee, we usually sing this song together. this song brings back nice memories with the gurls... you should meet them. blimmey.

screaming infidelities by dashboard confessionals

I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast
Is taking me home

I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
But you're not alone, and you're not discreet
Make sure I know who's taking you home.

I'm reading your note over again
And there's not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it
I will love you always and forever

Well as for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
But as for me, I wish that I was anywhere, with anyone
Making out.

I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you're pretending.

I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
and I am alone
In my defeat I wish I knew you were safely at home

I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast is taking me home.

Well as for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
but as for me, I wish that I was anywhere, with anyone
Making out.

Your hair, it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities
And taking its wear.
(x4)



notus: and this, for dave and rean.

i would like to come clean right now.

i am in cahoots with her in her poor efforts to abort her zygote. after 2 preg test, it seems that she may be pregnant. i'm not sure if it's T's of R's though... i think she may have some doubt that it may be T's but then she's been with R the whole time. and she's convince that it's R's.

mmmmmkay... it's not really a question of who's the biological father of the zygote. the thing is i've played a huge role on her attempt to abort the zygote.

1. 4 tablets of cortal orally taken, 1 tablet for vaginal insert. all these taken with a chug of dark lager to boot.

2. 1 tablet of cytotec orally taken and another one inserted. cytotec is not sold over-the-counter. one can get in quiapo though.

3. if all else fail, last resort would be to see an abortionist. there aren't very many out there.

i'm not really sure how far will i go along with this ploy. i cannot take part on this.

abortion. is this the only way to get away with a huge responsibility of child-bearing? i dunno. but if i were in her place, a child right now would be a great blunder for my enjoyment.

d'ya know that i'm gonna be a lot busy starting tonight.

first off, i will be going to CineManila with tita kong ang ate che tonight. gonna watch either a french film or the taliban movie. not sure which but i'm gonna meet them up at greenbelt in an hour.

i will some things tonight too. i dunno if i should bring a lot of clothes with me or not. jackie said it's just a simple wedding ceremony. still, this is jackie's wedding we're talking about!

and dershey's turning 19. omigod! my lil sister is getting old. augh! and it's gonna be my turn soon. yiiiiikes!

..... i dunno. haaaayyyy....

"Do you have a lot of self control? And are you exercising it more than usual?"

question: how am i gonna get away with rain this heavy and winds this strong???

i'm jumping up and down.. with joy and laughter in my heart. i've gone completely oblivious of this old blog and i'm so happy it still exists and i finding it! yipeeee!!!!! i'm so happy... even if the wind is sooooo strong outside.

man, it's been a while.

could you believe the vast expanse between the last post and this one?

lesson learn: there are some things you can't just get away of.

i'm glad i've found this blog after a loooooong time. :)