love alone by caedmon's call

No one would love me
if they knew all the things I hide
My words fall to the floor
As tears drip through the telephone line

And the hands I’ve seen raised to the sky
Not waving but drowning all this time
I'll try to build an ark that they need
To float to you upon the crystal sea

chorus:
Give me your hand to hold
'Cause I can't stand to love alone
And love alone is not enough to hold us up
We've got to touch your robe
So swing your robe down low
Swing your robe down low

The prince of despair's been beaten
But the loser still fights
Death's on a long leash
Stealing my friends to the night

And everyone cries for the innocent
You say to love the guilty too
And I'm surrounded by suffering and sickness
So I'm working tearing back the roof

(chorus)

And the pain of the world is a burden
And it's my cross to bear
And I stumble under all the weight
I know you're Simon standing there
And I know you're standing there



notus: i remember dave singing this song back in college. he wasn't the only jesus freak i know. raen, too. i wonder why things didn't work out for them... sigh.

amber by 311

Brainstorm
take me away from the norm
I got to tell you something
this phenomenon
I had to put it in a song
and it goes like

Whoa, amber is the color of your energy
whoa, shades of gold displayed naturally
you ought to know what brings me here
you glide through my head blind to fear
and I know why
whoa, amber is the color of your energy
whoa, shades of gold displayed naturally

Whoa, amber is the color of your energy
whoa, shades of gold displayed naturally

You live too far away
your voice rings like a bell anyway
don't give up your independence
unless it feels so right
nothing good comes easily
sometimes you gotta fight

Whoa, amber is the color of your energy
whoa, shades of gold displayed naturally
launched a thousand ships in my heart, so easy
still it's fine from afar, and you know that
whoa, brainstorm take me away from the norm
whoa, I got to tell you something



notus: a cosmopolite. a woman of the world. she has always been my wahine dream... but i dunno who she is.

big dream by samantha mathis

i have a dream, my own
and it's mine and mine alone
it's been my friend since i was just a girl

it has a life, it has a heart
has a soul and it's a part
of everything this woman keeps the world

and it's a big dream
big enough to share
like a rainbow, hanging in the air

nothing dark making it come true
makes me think maybe god's a woman too
makes me think maybe god's a woman too

there's a full moon tonight
and i'm bathing in its light
naked as the day i was born

there's no shame beneath this sky
i have kissed the past goodbye
and mended my broken heart so torn

with a sweet sound
only i can make
and it gets stronger with every breath i take

and it's all part of making me feel new
makes me think maybe god's a woman too
makes me think maybe god's a woman too



notus: this reminds of the movie This Thing Called Love. i remember how River Phoenix takes Samantha Mathis up to the top of a building in the middle of the city and introduces her to a sort-of "rite of passage". He tells her that she has to look out over the city and yell with determination: "Look out, Music City, 'cause I'm here now, and I ain't ever leaving!" i've always wanted to do this when i moved here but i didn't.

amie by damien rice

Nothing unusual, nothing strange
Close to nothing at all
The same old scenario, the same old rain
And there's no explosions here
Then something unusual, something strange
Comes from nothing at all
I saw a spaceship fly by your window
Did you see it disappear?

Amie come sit on my wall
And read me the story of O
And tell it like you still believe
That the end of the century
Brings a change for you and me
Nothing unusual, nothing's changed
Just a little older that's all
You know when you've found it,
There's something I've learned
'Cause you feel it when they take it away

Something unusual, something strange
Comes from nothing at all
But I'm not a miracle
And you're not a saint
Just another soldier
On the road to nowhere

Amie come sit on my wall
And read me the story of O
And tell it like you still believe
That the end of the century
Brings a change for you and me

And Amie come sit on my wall
And read me the story of O
And tell it like you still believe
That the end of the century
Brings a change for you and me



notus: "... come sit on my wall and read me the Story of O..." i have always loved the talks, the erotica that flows from our lips.

you are my high by demon vs heartbreaker

you are my high
feel me love you
you are my high
feel me love you
you are my high
till me love you
you are my high
till me love you

you
you are my high
till me love you
you are my high
feel me love you
you are my high

till me love high
you
to be my high
high me
to be high me

love
love
love
love
love me
love me
love me

you you are my high

till me love you
you are my high



notus: "Those days are so fucking blurred, how can you tell me you love me if we can't remember half the things we did? I don't want to be a lovely feeling associated with a lovely high, because no matter how nice it sounds when a boy tells a girl she is the perfect drug, in practice, I want to know you are flying because I am your wings and not because we have to make it to Bill's on time for our next e fix, or meth, or a dance with the white lady or whatever the fuck we felt like doing that night." an excerpt from Microsoft Word & The Vicodin Heart by Anaiis Flox

santeria by sublime

I don't practice santeria
I ain't got no crystal ball
I had a million dollars but I'd,
I'd spend it all
If I could find that heina and that sancho that she's found,
Well I'd pop a cap in sancho and I'd slap her down

What I really wanna know,
My baby, what I really want to say I can't define
Well it's love,
That I need, oh ,
But my soul will have to,
Wait till I get back and find heina of my own
Daddy's gonna love one and all

I feel the break,
Feel the break,
Feel the break and I got to live it up,
Oh, yea huh, well I swear that I
What I really wanna know, baby,
What I really want to say I can't define
That love make it go,
My soul will have to...

What I really wanna say,
My baby,
What I really wanna say is I've got mine
And I'll make it, Yes, I'm comin' up

Tell sanchito that if he knows what is good for him
He best go run and hide
Daddy's got a new .45
And I won't think twice to stick that barrel
Straight down sancho's throat
Believe me when I say that
I got somethin for his punk ass
What I really wanna know, my baby,
What I really wanna say is there's just one,
Way back,
And I'll make it, yea,
But my soul will have to wait

Daddy's got a new .45



notus: reminds me of daddy.

last goodbye by jeff buckley

This is our last goodbye
I hate to feel the love between us die
But it's over
Just hear this and then I'll go :
you gave me more to live for,
more than you'll ever know.

This is our last embrace,
must I dream and always see your face
Why can't we overcome this wall
Baby, maybe it is just because I didn't know you at all.

Kiss me, please,
Kiss me
But kiss me out of desire, babe, and not consolation
You know,
it makes me so angry 'cause I know that in time
I'll only make you cry, this is our last goodbye.

Did you say "no, this can't happen to me,"
and did you rush to the phone to call?
Was there a voice unkind in the back of your mind saying,
"maybe... you didn't know him at all."

Well, the bells out in the church tower chime
Burning clues into this heart of mine
Thinking so hard on her soft eyes and the memory
Of her sighs that, "it's over... it's over..."



notus: "sometimes i wish i had never met you because then i could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there." Dr. Lambeau, Good Will Hunting

She's Got Issues by The Offspring

I‘m seeing this girl and she just might be out of her mind
Well she‘s got baggage and it‘s all the emotional kind
She talks about closure and that validation bit
I don‘t mean to be insensitive, but I really hate that shit

Oh man she‘s got issues
And I‘m gonna pay
She thinks she‘s the victim
Yeah

Now I know she‘ll feel abandoned
If I don‘t stay over late
And I know she‘s afraid to commit
But it‘s only our second date

Oh man she‘s got issues
And I‘m gonna pay
She thinks she‘s the victim
But she takes it all out on me

I don‘t know why you‘re messed up
I don‘t know why your whole life is a chore
Just do me a favor
And check your baggage at the door

Now she talks about her ex nonstop, but I don‘t mind
But when she calls out his name in bed
That‘s where I draw the line
You told me a hundred times how your father left and he‘s gone
But I wish you wouldn‘t call me daddy
When we‘re gettin‘ it on

Oh man she‘s got issues
And I‘m gonna pay
She‘s playing the victim
And taking it all out on me
My god she‘s got issues
And I‘m gonna pay

If you think I‘m controlling
Then why do you follow me around
If you‘re not co-dependent
Then why do you let others drag you down

I don‘t know why you‘re messed up
I don‘t know why your whole life is a chore
Just do me a favor
And check your baggage at the door



notus: krystel, vous êtes des bagages émotifs.

the trick is to keep breathing by garbage

She's not the kind of girl
Who likes to tell the world
About the way she feels about herself
She takes a little time
In making up her mind
She doesn't want to fight against the tide

Lately
I'm not the only one
I say
Never trust anyone

Always the one who has to drag her down
Maybe you'll get what you want this time around

Can't bear to face the truth
So sick he cannot move
And when it hurts he takes it out on you

Lately
I'm not the only one
I say
Never trust anyone

Always the one who has to drag her down
Maybe you'll get what you want this time around

The trick is to keep breathing
The trick is to keep breathing

She knows the human heart
And how to read the stars
Now everything's about to fall apart

I won't be the one who's going to let you down
Maybe you'll get what you want this time around ?

I won't be the one who's going to let you down
Maybe you'll get what you want this time around ?

The trick is to keep breathing X7



notus: if it ain't it, i dunno what.

angels or devils by dishwalla

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold



notus: my days during 2004 had witness the battle of angels and demons.

sway by bic runga

Don't stray
Don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better
Of me sometimes
When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown
Let me down
I say its all because of you and here I go
Losing my control
I'm practising your name
So I can say it to your face it doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye
And let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time
Tell you why
I say its infinately true
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
And there's no cure
And no way to be sure
Why everythings turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired
I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now
It all turns sour
Come sweeten
Every afternoon
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
Its all because of you
Its all because of you



notus: it's all bcuz of you... allin. huhuhuhuhuhu...

Easy Like Sunday Morning by Faith No More

Know it sounds funny
But I just can't stand the pain
Girl I'm leaving you tomorrow
Seems to me girl
You know I've done all I can
You see I begged, stole
And I borrowed
Ooh, that's why I'm easy
I'm easy like Sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like Sunday morning

I wanna be high, so high
I wanna be free to know
The things I do are right
I wanna be free
Just me, babe!
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like Sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like Sunday morning
Because I'm easy
Easy like Sunday morning
Because I'm easy
Easy like Sunday morning



notus: wow! how i wish things can be easy like Sunday morning.

Love Song by 311

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you



notus: he almost sang this song to me. why does he have to be this goddamn romantic when he's a self-confessed playboy? augh! gurls just love bad boys, don't we?

fake plastic trees by radiohead

Her Green plastic watering can
For her fake chinese rubber plant
In fake plastic earth.
That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plans.
Just to get rid of itself.
And It Wears Her Out, it wears her out
It wears her out, it wears her out.

She lives with a broken man
A cracked polystyrene man
Who just crumbles and burns.
He used to do surgery
For girls in the eighties
But gravity always wins.
And It Wears Him Out, it wears him out
It wears him out, it wears him out.

She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My Fake Plastic Love.
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run
And It Wears Me Out, it wears me out
It wears me out, it wears me out.

And if I could BE who you wanted
If I could BE who you wanted,
All the time, all the time, ohhh... ohh...



notus: my favorite song in the world. i love and adore green day as a band but i sing my praises and throw heaps and heaps of adulation to radiohead for this song.

be strong now by james iha

little darling belle with such a fragile shell
in the powerful way that love seems to make her all regret it now
and if she'd only say what's wrong- she can't go on
you've got to be strong now
and if I come and hold you now
you'll be safe and sound
little lonely face that no one ever sees
you see the thing she believes is life is bittersweet if she'd
open up to me, and its the only thing she dreams,
you gotta believe
you've got to be strong now
and if I come and hold you now
you've got to be strong now
if I hold you now
if I hold you now
if I hold you now
ooh god if I could change a thing tonight we won't
be lonely, ooh god if I could change a thing,
why does it have to be this way
you've got to be strong now
and if i come and hold you now
you've got to be strong now
if i hold you now
if i hold you now


notus: heard myself singing to this lyrics tonight.... you've gotta be strong now...

forget her by jeff buckley

While this town is busy sleeping,
All the noise has died away.
I walk the streets to stop my weeping,
'Cause she'll never change her ways.
Don't fool yourself, she was heartache from the moment that you met her.
My heart feels so still as I try to find the will to forget her, somehow.
Oh I think I've forgotten her now.
Her love is a rose, pale and dying.
Dropping her petals in land unknown
All full of wine, the world before her, was sober with no place to go.
Don't fool yourself, she was heartache from the moment that you met her.
My heart is frozen still as I try to find the will to forget her, somehow.
She's somewhere out there now.
(Guitar Solo)
Well my tears falling down as I try to forget,
Her love was a joke from day that we met.
All of the words, all of her men,
all of my pain when I think back to when.
Remember her hair as it shone in the sun,
the smell of the bed when I knew what she'd done.
Tell yourself over and over you won't ever need her again.
But don't fool yourself,
she was heartache from the moment that you met her.
My heart is frozen still as I try to find the will to forget her, somehow.
She's out there somewhere now.
Oh She was heartache from the day that I first met her.
My heart is frozen still as I try to find the will to forget you, somehow.
Cause I know you're somewhere out there right now.



notus: fur sid. he deserves someone not like you.

here in my room by incubus

This party is old and uninviting
Participants all in black and white
You enter in fullblown technicolor
Nothing is the same after tonight

If the world would fall apart
In a fiction worthy wind
I wouldn't change a thing
Now that you're here

Yeah, love is a verb here in my room
Here in my room, here in my room

You enter and close the door behind you
Now show me the world as seen from the stars
If only the lights would dim a little
I'm weary of eyes upon my scars

Pink tractor beam into your incision
Head spinning as free as dervishs' whirl
I came here expecting next to nothing
So thank you for being that kind of girl
That kind of girl



notus: your... just... so... ... ... listen to me now... this is your song... aw man... why am i a frustrated writer???!!

say it ain't so by weezer

Oh yeah.
All right.

Somebody’s heine is crowding my icebox.
Somebody’s cold one is giving me chills.
Guess I’ll just close my eyes.

Oh yeah.
All right.
Feels good.
Inside.

Flip on the tele... wrestle with jimmy.
Somethin’ is bubblin’ behind my butt.
The bottle is ready to go.

Say it ain’t so a-woah-a-woah.
Your drug is a heartbreaker.
Say it ain’t so a-woah-a-woah.
My love is a life-taker.

I can’t confront you, I never could do...
That which might hurt you.
Try and be cool, when I say:
This way is-a-waterslide-away-from-you-that-takes-you-futher-everyday!
Be cool.

Say it ain’t so a-woah-a-woah.
Your drug is a heartbreaker.
Say it ain’t so a-woah-a-woah.
My love is a life-taker!

Dear daddy, I write you in spite of fears of silence.
You cleaned up, found jesus, things are good also I hear.
This bottle of stevens awakens ancient feelings...
Like father, step-father...
The sone is drowning in the flood! yeah yeah-yeah yeah-yeah!

Say it ain’t so a-woah-a-woah.
You drug is a heartbreaker.
Say it ain’t so a-woah-a-woah.
My love is a life-taker.



notus: lovlovlovin' this song... would you believe this has been around for a decade now??? and we grunge people are still jamming on it. i wish i had a band.... really.

cut your hair by pavement

Darlin’ don’t you go and cut your hair
Do you think it’s gonna make him change?
I’m just a boy with a new haircut
And that’s a pretty nice haircut
Charge it like a puzzle, hit me wearin’ muzzles
Hesitate to die, look around, around, the second drummer’s drowned
His telephone is found

Music scene is crazy, bands start up each and every day
I saw another one just the other day
A special new band
I remember lying
I don’t remember lies
I don’t remember what
But I don’t care, I care, I really don’t care
Did you see the drummer’s hair?

Advertising looks and chops a must
No big hair!!
Songs mean a lot
When songs are bought
And so are you-
Bitch, rant down to the practice room
Attention and fame so
Career, career, career....



notus: to all long-haired hardcore rockers: this is for you! reynan once gave me a tape of songs. one of them has this song on it. i dunno why he included it in the list but like him, i wear my hair long.

everybody here wants you by jeff buckley

Twenty-nine pearls in your kiss, a singing smile,
coffee smell and lilac skin, your flame in me.
Twenty-nine pearls in your kiss, a singing smile,
coffe smell and lilac skin, your flame in me.
I'm only here for this moment.
I know everybody here wants you.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you.
I'll be waiting right here just to show you

How our love will blow it all away.
Such a thing of wonder in this crowd,
I'm a stranger in this town, you're free with me.
And our eyes locked in downcast love, I sit here proud,
Even now you're undressed in your dreams with me.
I'm only here for this moment.
I know everybody here wants you.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you.
I'll be waiting right here just to show you
How our love will blow it all away.
I know the tears we cried have dried on yesterday
The sea of fools has parted for us
there's nothing in our way, my love
Don't you see, don't you see?
You're just the torch to put the flame
to all our guilt and shame,
And I'll rise like an ember in your name.
You know I, you know I,
I know everybody here wants you.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you.
I'll be waiting right here just to show you
Let me show that love can rise, rise just like
embers.
Love can taste like the wine of the ages, babe.
And I know they all look so good from a distance,
But I tell you I'm the one.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you,
thinks he needs you
And I'll be waiting right here just to show you.



notus: sexy, sexy, sexy song.... this fits as a background song during foreplay. can you picture out what i'm thinking??? i couldn't articulate it. would you rather see me do it??? hehehehe